Table of Contents for Reluctant Nazi : Searching for My Grandfather


1 Oh, My God!
7(6)
2 You Made Soap out of my Aunt
13(5)
3 A Clash of Memories
18(6)
4 Growing Up Prussian
24(6)
5 Seven Kilometres of Documents
30(6)
6 The Shot Heard Around the World
36(6)
7 Track 17
42(5)
8 Better Times
47(8)
9 May Day, May Day, May Day
55(5)
10 Wedding Bells
60(5)
11 Little Noodle
65(6)
12 Christmas Trees
71(4)
13 Unwelcome Guests
75(3)
14 A Death in Prague
78(3)
15 Leave
81(4)
16 Russians at the Gates
85(7)
17 Abyss between Then and Now
92(5)
18 Blocked on All Sides
97(6)
19 Wrapped Up in the Flag
103(3)
20 Mood Reports
106(6)
21 Humans are Fiercer
112(3)
22 You Not Lie
115(6)
23 My Painful Hour
121(8)
24 Pentecost Sunday
129(4)
25 A Little Light
133(6)
26 Lead us not into Temptation
139(6)
27 The Silence
145(4)
28 Suicidal Thoughts
149(3)
29 Professional Development
152(5)
30 Nyussi's Birthday
157(3)
31 Walking through a Nightmare
160(5)
32 Living in Insecurity
165(5)
33 Paradise Lost
170(6)
34 The Little Swallows Play
176(4)
35 Without the Faintest Guilt
180(3)
36 The Allies are Coming
183(6)
37 Another Dismissal
189(4)
38 Homeless
193(5)
39 I am at the End!
198(6)
40 We'd be Lucky to get Ike Cleared
204(3)
41 Aborted Journeys
207(5)
42 Have I a Right?
212(5)
43 Listen to the Grasshoppers
217(5)
44 A Bad Christian
222(3)
45 A Little Closer to Thee
225(6)
46 Deus ex Machina
231(4)
47 Zukunftsbang
235(6)
48 Return to Blue Mountain
241(5)
49 Theodor
246(3)
50 Keep Your Ears Stiff
249(4)
51 Kindertransport
253(6)
52 De-Nazified
259(2)
53 A Stable Home
261(5)
54 Api and Me
266(6)
55 Eckermannstrasse 19
272(4)
56 A Visit to Bevensen
276(4)
57 Gloves at the Bottom of the Stairs
280(5)
58 Trying to Understand
285(3)
59 And Yet ...
288(5)
60 Inner Emigration
293(7)
61 A Wide Field
300(3)
62 The Partiality of Everything
303(3)
Source Notes 306(4)
Acknowledgements 310(1)
Bibliography 311(7)
Index 318