Excerpts for Thing About Luck
The Thing About Luck
Kouun is "good luck" in Japanese, and one year my family had none of it. We were cursed with bad luck. Bad luck chased us around, pointing her bony finger. We got seven flat tires in six weeks. I got malaria, one of fifteen hundred cases in the United States that year. And my grandmother's spine started causing her excruciating pain.
Furthermore, random bad smells emanated from we knew not where. And my brother, Jaz, became cursed with invisibility. Nobody noticed him except us. His best friend had moved away, and he did not know a single boy to hang around with. Even our cousins looked the other way when they saw him at our annual Christmas party. They didn't even seem to be snubbing my brother; they just didn't see him.
The thing about luck is that it's like a fever. You can take fever meds and lie in bed and drink chicken broth and sleep seventeen hours in a row, but basically your fever will break when it wants to break.
In early April my parents got a call from Japan. Three elderly relatives were getting ready to die and wanted my parents to take care of them in their last weeks and months. There was nothing surprising about this. This was just the way our year was going. It was April 25 when my grandparents and Jaz delivered my parents to the airport to catch their plane to Japan. I stayed at home because the type of malaria I'd gotten was called "airport malaria." Airport malaria is when a rogue mosquito from, say, Africa has been inadvertently carried into the United States on a jet. This infected mosquito might bite you. I got bit in Florida last summer, and I lived in Kansas. The chances that I would get malaria from going to the airport in Kansas were remote, but I'd grownso scared of mosquitoes that sometimes I didn't even like stepping outside. It really wasn't fair--I was only twelve, and yet already I was scared of the entire outside world.
During the 1940s there were thousands of malaria cases in the United States. Then in the fifties the experts thought malaria here was eradicated. But every so often, someone still caught it. Sometimes you would get your picture in the newspaper. My picture was even in Time magazine!
Obaachan and Jiichan, my grandmother and grandfather on my mother's side, were both sixty-seven and lived with us in Littlefield, Kansas. "Obaachan" was more formal than "Baachan," but it was what she wanted Jaz and me to call her.
When harvest season arrived in May of our horrible year, Jiichan planned to come out of retirement to work as a combine driver for a custom harvesting company called Parker Harvesting, Inc. (I'll explain about custom harvesting in a minute or two.) My grandmother would work as a cook for the same harvester, with me as her helper.
We'd all worked for the Parkers before. But it was the first time my parents wouldn't be there, which meant only my grandparents would be paying the mortgage during harvest this year. I didn't quite understand what "paying the mortgage" meant, but apparently, it was a constant struggle. Another phrase that came up a lot was "paying down the principal," as in, "If we could just pay down the principal, I'd feel like we were getting somewhere." I used to think that "paying down the principal" meant they wanted to bribe the principal at one of my future schools, like they would give this principal some money, and then someday the principal would let me into high school despite my iffy grades.
Anyway. As soon as my grandparents got home from dropping off my parents, changes were implemented. My mother had told Jaz, "Don't worry. You'll make a friend when you least expect it." My grandparents were more proactive. It seems Obaachan and Jiichan had a bright idea they'd been hiding from us.
Obaachan made Jaz and me sit on the floor in front of the coffee table while she and Jiichansat on the couch. "We having meeting-party," she announced regally. "We invite boys we will consider for friendship with Jaz." She turned to me. "Make list with him. I no interfere."
"A list of people to invite?" I asked. My Doberman, Thunder, tried to push himself between me and the table. I pushed back, and we just sat there, leaning hard into each other.
"No! A list!" she snapped at me.
Wasn't that what I had just said? I finally got up and moved to a different side of the table. Still unsure what she wanted, I got a pen and paper.
"Pencil! You may need to erase."
I got a pencil and readied myself. "Should I number the list?" I asked.
My grandfather nodded sagely. "Agenda," he said. "List for boys we invite, agenda for party."
"No interfere!" Obaachan said to Jiichan.
"You interfere first!"
Obaachan and Jiichan had been married for forty-nine years, and my mother always said that after that number of years, you no longer had to be polite all the time. It sometimes seemed thatin our house, I was the only one who had to use my manners. Jaz didn't have to because he had issues. When I'm sixty-seven, in fifty-five years, I supposed that I would finally be able to dispense with my manners.
I thought Jiichan and Obaachan talked to each other the way that they did because they'd had an arranged marriage. Obaachan said that if I had an arranged marriage, I would never give or receive a broken heart. If I grew up beautiful, I would never break any man's heart, and if I grew up plain, nobody would break my heart. If I rebelled and wanted love, however, all bets were off. Broken hearts would come my way like locusts.
"Summer! You in rah-rah land." She never said "la-la land," and I never corrected her.
I hurriedly wrote Number one on the paper in the left-hand margin.
"No number," Obaachan said. "Arrange by time. I have to tell you everything?"
Jiichan picked up the paper, studied the Number one, and set the paper back down. "I agree. Arrange by time."
I erased the Number one and wrote in One o'clock p.m. I made sure not to flick the eraser bits onto the floor, because if I did, Obaachan would be so upset that she might fall over dead.
"Noon!" barked Obaachan. I made the change. "Continue. First write day on top of paper in big letter. Day for meeting is next Saturday. Then continue."
"What would you like to do at noon?" I asked Jaz.
"Play with LEGOs. I want a LEGO party."
"Not really party," Jiichan said. He was cleaning his teeth with the floss he always carried in his shirt pocket. Sometimes he flossed during dinner, right at the table. See what I mean about manners? Can you imagine what your parents would do if you started to floss at the dinner table? But he constantly seemed to have something between his teeth. "More of meeting than party," he said.
"Noon lunchtime," Obaachan said. "You feed boys first. Boys always hungry. Never mind. I no interfere. But no food, no friend. What I just say?"
"No food, no friend," Jaz and I repeated. Obaachan sometimes made us repeat something she had just said, to prove we were listening.
Jaz turned to Obaachan. "Obaachan, will you make sandwiches?"
"Summer make. I her mentor."
I found myself already starting to feel stressed. What if I made ham sandwiches and the boys wanted tuna fish? What if I used regular bread and one of the boys needed gluten-free, like my friend Alyssa had to eat because of her allergies? What if I used too much mayonnaise? Arghhh!
Still, next to Noon I wrote Sandwich eating.
Jiichan pounded on the paper. "Lunch!" he cried out passionately. "Not ‘sandwich eating'! It called ‘lunch'!" He clutched at his heart. "You kids go to kill me." Apparently, about once every couple of weeks, he thought we were going to kill him.
"What kind of sandwiches would you like?" I asked Jaz, still worrying about those. "I don't want to make the wrong kind."
"I'll ask around at school. I can't believe this is happening. I'm really going to have a meeting-party." He got up to look at himself in a mirrorover our fake fireplace and said, "You are going to have a meeting-party."
Jiichan was now standing and staggering away from us with his hands on his heart. Jaz and I watched him calmly. "I die, scatter ashes," Jiichan said. "No keep in hole in wall at cemetery. You hear me?"
"Yes, Jiichan," we said.
"Good. Then I die happy."
I wrote down LEGOs, one o'clock. My brother had approximately one thousand dollars' worth of LEGOs. Seriously. I counted once. LEGOs were one of our biggest expenses and the only thing we splurged on.
"Good plan!" Jiichan said. "That brilliant!" I couldn't tell if he was being sarcastic as he peered over my shoulder from his death throes.
"How long is the meeting-party?" Jaz asked.
"I think most parties are two hours," I answered. "So I guess that's the end of the agenda?" Nobody answered, so I made a line underneath the agenda and laid down the pencil.
"Who should I invite?" Jaz asked. "Should it be just kids who I think might come, or shouldit be kids who might not come but on the other hand you never know? Should it be just kids in my class, or should it be all the kids in my grade? Should it be boys and girls or just boys? Should it be only kids who might not even know who I am even though I know who they are? Should it--"
Jiichan held up his palm to quiet Jaz. "Invite whole fifth grade," he said wisely. We all looked at him, and he nodded. "That way hurt nobody's feelings."
Jaz stared at him doubtfully for a moment, but then his face turned from doubtful to ecstatic. I could almost hear him thinking, Wow, the whole school might come to my meeting-party!
Then my grandparents wanted Jaz to draw invitations. He was a good artist in kind of a weird way. Like, he never drew pictures of anything recognizable, but if you needed a totally psychedelic design, he was your man. But he wanted to buy invitations because he thought they were more official. We ended up driving thirty miles to a 99-cent store in a larger town. After loud and passionate debate, we bought several boxes of dinosaur invitations. On Monday,Jaz distributed them to all the kids in the fifth grade at his school.
So as not to jinx the party, we weren't supposed to talk to one another about it. But we could pray all we wanted, in front of several sprigs of silk cherry blossoms on the coffee table. We did this the night before the party. Cherry blossoms, as the harbingers of spring, were important to Japanese farmers. My grandmother mumbled in Japanese as I knelt beside her. I could make out a word occasionally--like unmei for "destiny."
As Obaachan muttered on, I prayed in my head: Please let my brother have a successful meeting-party. Let the kids have fun, let him make at least one friend, preferably two. Please, please, please.
That night I drew in my notebook like I always did. I didn't draw very well, so each picture took me weeks. I copied them from photographs of mosquitoes I found.
One time I thought I had a perfect drawing, so I sent it to a mosquito expert, and this is what he said: "Looks like an Anopheles, but the proboscis is ‘hairy' and the palps look like a thin line, so this is not a good representation, but could easilybe changed (make palps more than a line and get rid of bristle on mouthparts and you have an Anopheles female). The problem is that most (but not all) Anopheles in the U.S. tend to have spots on their wings, which these drawings lack." Wow, epic fail on my part!
It was strange because I knew that if I had almost been killed by a car, I wouldn't have become fascinated with cars. If I had almost drowned, I wouldn't have become obsessed with water. But the more I looked at mosquitoes, even the same type that had infected me, the more delicate they seemed. Fragile, even. And yet one had almost taken my life. It was like now we couldn't be separated. I mean, if I saw one on my arm, I wouldn't hesitate to smash it or even run screaming down the highway. They terrified me. But still, we were inseparable.